Deep inside of the psyche of every single human being resides the realm of the shadow – the unconscious mind.
The unconscious mind holds all of the parts of ourselves that we’ve split off from, deeming these parts unacceptable, bad, wrong, unlovable, unsafe and unwelcome.
The sexual shadow contains the parts of our sexuality that we hide, shame, deny and repress.
I formed my (first) sexual shadow at age 2 when I had my first orgasm.
Thinking back and feeling into the memories now, I remember how in touch with my sexual energy I was at that innocent age and how divine, pure and holy it felt. My sexual energy coursed through me, feeling ecstatic and whole-bodied yet transcendental all at once.
I formed this sexual shadow because I thought that I wouldn’t be loved or protected by my parents if I didn’t. My parents took me to the doctor to have me examined, because they thought something was wrong with me. What was really happening was I was grinding my body into the floor until I experienced what I now know is orgasm.
I shoved my sexual energy and pleasure into a deep, dark box within my psyche and pussy to protect myself (and others). After all, if I was going to the doctor…that meant something was wrong with me…and that meant that something was wrong with my sexual energy.
It was bad, dirty, wrong, unsafe. Something to be ashamed of and to hide.
I’ve heard from so many other people that they’ve had similar experiences of hiding sexual energy and shutting down sexually…casting those parts of themselves into the forbidden land of the shadow realm.
Sometimes it was because of a traumatic violation of their body and/or sexual energy.
Sometimes it was because they were told to close their legs, act like a good little girl or stop touching themselves a certain way.
Sometimes it was because they were called a slut or a prude.
Whatever your story is with your own sexual shadows, we’re going to explore the deep integration process of sexual shadow work in today’s video so that you can welcome and integrate these parts of yourself again, reaching total wholeness and embodying your full pleasure, sexual energy and orgasmic potential.
We’ll also explore how splitting off from your sexuality affects your ability to manifest your deepest desires and I’ll share some of my top practices and rituals for sexual shadow healing and manifesting these desires into the material world.
You can find out more about the erotic archetypes I work with by reading this article.
The last method that I mention in the video (make sure to watch all the way through) is a sexual shadow integration meditation using sexual energy as a way of merging the conscious and unconscious parts of ourselves.
This is a meditation that I lead in my course Solo Sex Magic and it’s really powerful because it aligns your unconscious mind with your conscious mind so that you don’t have that division inside anymore.
It brings you back into wholeness with not only your sexuality, but with the things you desire in your life. The meditation I teach in the course is specifically designed to work with your desires. Like wanting more money, better health, hotter sex or to travel. Whatever these desires are.
Often because we have division inside a conscious part of us will want our desire and feel attraction towards it and a part of us (residing in the unconscious) does not want it, is afraid of it manifesting and is actually repulsed by it.
The point of this practice is to experience whole and total fulfillment of all of your parts and all of your desires in your mind and body through an integrated meditation and sexual shadow process that doesn’t judge, shame, hide or repress any of your shadows or desires.
You get to experience both sides of your desire. The acceptable and not-so acceptable. You get to look at your fears around it not coming true and actually coming true.
This whole process allows you to see and embody the light and dark sides of your desire as equally wholesome. Both are good and right for you to have. To shed shame. The transmutation creates a container where they can combine. The duality allows you to find oneness. Embracing the “dark” side of your desire and the “light” side.
If you want to learn how to do this process, I’ll be teaching it in Solo Sex Magic, which you can check out. Doors are open for a limited time so if you’re wanting to learn both sex magic and sexual shadow integration practices so you can come into total alignment with who you are and create your life by design, consider joining us.
Check it out here before Solo Sex Magic closes on November 6th at Midnight EST.
For a taste of sex magic, download my free Solo Sex Magic ebook here.
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Amber